When you stop giving attention to the one..!

It is so true..! when you stop giving attention to the people who you like, if they care and like you enough, they will surely come searching for you ! 


My french teacher in high school  is extremely so kind…! she was my teacher when i was in grade nine , and i loved her so much…! she was so so nice! she gave me great marks for the work i had put in.! she liked my bro so much ! well she never met him ! i did a presentation on him in class one day and ever since she is always amused at me for loving my brother so dearly..! 


And today when my english teacher did not come, she was the supply for the other half of the class…and out of the 30 people in class..! she waved a big “H I ” to me and i felt so special and she remembered me in her class from grade nine…and she asked me why i did not continue with french…and at that moment i wish i did ! 

it was not hard, i always scored 90 and above in french…..i do not know WHY i didnt take it ! 


If there’s one thing i recommend younger people, when like before you enter high school or after you enter…have a clear decision about what you want to do in life and be CAREFUL about what courses you take..! sometimes you wish you could have taken that course……!! no regrets..! i have some regrets in the course i took in my high school life.! 


I am telling y’all from experience, and mine might mean nothing to you, but somewhere, someone might benefit from reading this ! 


in conclusion love the people who still rmbr you after a loong time ! my french teacher i can never forget in life <3<3


Yet, you fall out too quickly and painfully.

I saw him that day, I don’t know why i did….. But he remembered me, and i did not..! He proved me all the reasons to why a guy like him should be treasured…when i  came to know him throughout few hours i spent with him, he seemed so simple, yet so unique in nature…. because he IS different from the rest and i am sure he will be as always….! He knew from two years back ! and i did not remember him clearly at all. When he moved my fingers to see my face, and say yes, i know her…..i had no clue….but it felt so good when he knew me….when he talked to me…..He talked to me as if he has known me for a long long time  ! it felt so strange, yet i found happiness in that strangeness..! When it was time to leave ! i did not want to leave, i wanted to stay longer..! he amused me with his kind actions ! it felt i should stay there for ever..! or that these moments would freeze… it is impossible i know, but when i was with him that was the only thing i could wish for when i met him… When he took that apple when i gave him, i kinda felt accepted…! it reminded me of a twilight cover ❤  and when he respected “ladies’ so much…i have never seen someone like him  who has given so much respect and attention.  when i left the building and the way he followed me to the door,  the way he was eager to know to what i was talking, the way my heart did not want to leave that place…..when i went to my locker, the way he waited for me..! is this all really for me ? is there really so much meaning behind all this ? am i getting too excited ? am i getting too happy ? i do not know, i have not behaved like this before, but why now? but why to him ? when i left those doors i did not know if i will ever see him again? if i will ever talk to him again? but i wanted to talk , i wanted to see him again… i told my friend to get his id…and i left….

When he says “Yo” i think of so many things that i wish that he really meant what i thought of. i wish he would text me in the morning, and when i do not text, i want him miss me just once….!

It was Thursday March. 29. 2012 i saw him…! and wished i would see..! if fate allowed us to meet again…and then we did in my tuition class on Saturday ! i finished mine and he walked in, i felt happy, i was jumping in joy…..on the way to tuition, i swear to god i was thinking if he goes to the school near by, will he come to the tuition..? i did not finish my thought about him, and there he was..! at that moment i believed in him, i believed in miracles… i went home smiling…. it felt like my home brightened a little more that day ! i went to sleep with thoughts of him ! memories of him! moments of his meeting to my eye !

I talked to him over the long weekend in april, and i wished wont another longweekend come ? 😛

i always looked for reasons to meet him… i always expected him on every Thursdays… i did not tell him how happy i was, but i kept it within me ! so from that i looked forward to every Thursdays..!

But i feel as though he does not feel the same ! i feel as though my thoughts are different from his…! i do not know, i have not asked, but it hurts when he does not understand what i tell him not in words but in actions…because in everything i do he is there my sunshine ! my dear-u my jaan ❤

Is this reality or am i dreaming too much ?

Every time when he talks to me, i jump in joy..!
But i feel as though he is not concerned about my feelings !
I try to show my feelings, yet i do not know whether he is acting as if he does not understand it or he gets and ignores it or simply he is feeling the same ?
how will i find the answer to this ? yea, it s simple, ASK him right? i am too scared to ask him !
Even today when he ,messaged me, i felt happy…. he made me smile !
but he only messaged me to tell me something about someone..!
i do not known !
i get confused !
n he confuses me
n i confuse him !
Funny feelings !