Medicine for my wounds :) Mickey !

Be #Bold … never lose like a Coward… ~~~
I tell you … Change your attitude first…
Now think that , this is the worst loss in ur life, so from now onwards you can face anythng in Life, without any fear of losing ……
See to that , you are THE BEST in every thing you do ….people must cme at the back of you , YOu dnt go back of them …..
Live life like a KING ,,,
Cuttting your hand , would cost you sme hospital charges, and sme blood …. avladha …. nothing big di 😛 😀 🙂 ….
Eruma Eruma …. Do something , only if it has sme good result , else why waste time in it ? …..
Ada po pa…. Vaazhkaiya Vaazhanum(live life)… nalla Vaazhanum nu(enjoy it), yosi(think) …. looking at you ,Others must wonder …. Life eh
ivlo sandhoshama vaazha mudiyumaa nu ….( if you could live this happily)
I guess you can feel , what i am saying ….. Start Living your Life, lively..  🙂 …
take care dear 🙂 ….

Unspeakable silence of words…. that are haunting me..!

I have been telling myself for so long to be strong…. and i was on roll on that for few months i guess…. then comes the gloomy days…where nowdays i dun even knw who to trust anymore…even the ones who seem very close to us lie to you, cheat you, hide things from you….. unbelievable how people change so much and how much that changes hurt another person…! i had a friend who was very close to me when i was in grade nine….. or i thought she was….. even then she talked about me to other people…! well she would say i gossiped about them..! and somehow ruined the friendship tht i had with other people…..! then off she goes on  a flight and doesnt show up for nearly 3 years….! i was missing her a lot….i wished she was here..! and sometimes when we talked we talked about our good old days of grade nine stories..! the fun we had for four months of school..! seems like i dont even know this girl completely for a year and there i was yearning for her presence…. how silly, how schwpuid..! aiyoooo…!

SHE comes back, and does her same old dirty lies….goes around to people and talk about me behind my back and is still friendly with me…….! i cant believe her.! then she becomes friends with another friend of mine completely forgets about me…. forget us…forget the memories…..its hurts when people forget…..

NO NO TRUST..! yea i couldnt trust her…..there she wa…going around acting all nice around me and being friendly….! and there was another side to her when she hid from me….a side that i knew very well of..! she lied to me for someone else…..she hid the truth for me…… she crushed my friendship for her…. the day she did i had no respect for her…. i may not have been with her during happy times…!but i was there everytime she had tears in her eyes…i was there every time she needed me …and YET all she CARED about was being with her new friend….

I lost too many things in life….i had very difficult time coping without them…..it was in every thought of mine….it was there in every happiness of mine…! and suddenly to have it broken hurt like the core..!

i was lost….i was helpless…! all people wanted to see was me smiling all the time..! oh cum’on i m HUMAN….and i cry sometime…and i have the right to not smile, yet they irritate me so much…!

sometimes i wanna go back home…sleep on the Terrace…and forget about everything…better yet… i wanna sleep on my grandma’s lap and talk non stop to her and bug her…. i dont want this pain of staying here…

i wanted to come back…buh i had these restrictions like a fence….and now that fence seems to be between you and me….[ it wont make sense to you, buh in my world it does] i m sorry reader

i am just ranting out my thoughts and feelings…because i dont want to break down…

i cried a lot today….i had no words to tell anyone how i feel..

the one who i want to listen,  is not talking to me

the one i want to share with, is so far away..!

i just stayed quiet at some things today

NEVER GET ACCUSTOMED TO ANYONE, ANYTHING….. it hurts you so much when it leaves…

a lesson everyone learns in life….buh it is a lesson tht  i have been going thru fr a long time

Another friend of mine was with me in my one of my fav.classes….! and yet today she decided to drop the class…

i had nothing but tears

i had no words to express

i just stayed quiet

bcos i know tmrw she will not be with me in my class tmrw…

so what now is the point i cry after she decided to leave?

life goes on……………

hopefully all will be fine !

all is well….

Thank you to all my readers who have been reading my words………….!

No belief… No hope…. No smile

I don’t like dwelling on the past…but lately I have been stuck in that realm a lot….i keep walking back into the same memories….nothing but tears…. All jus a memory…it was all a beautiful dream…then it all shattered…..i told many times that you were the reason behind my smile…and I have thanked you so many times for that…suddenly It  seem as though I am forgotten from your memory. Let me tell you how much I hate restrictions….God help me… “I can’t do this…this is not right…all of them are just frustrating me… I am just annoyed…and hate myself for caring too much.. you fool I am the damn one with tears…I hate you so much…why the hell did I want to be your friend so badly…… I regret it… please someone…give me a brainwash…. Distract me..i  am drowning in my memories…someone please help… I am tired of smiling…tired of pretending..tired of pretending to be happy…. I want to forget these damn memories of you… what do I do? I GIVE UP……….!

 

My heart will go on without ya…!